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[ i'm gonna be honest, when mineo mentions gojou the emotion that is coming off of takeru is just the emotional equivalent of an eye roll. ]

Are you kidding me? We spent an entire week where people agreed they did not want Childe around. The only real argument was that people weren't sure when to kill him, and not whether or not we should. When it comes to his death, even though you were the one who did it, everyone is guilty in some way.

[ he's so annoyed, and his anger is flaring up again. ]

Do you not understand how amazing it was that we managed a no vote? It would have been impossible any other week, because we couldn't actually trust that everyone would comply. There was always someone spite voting, or scared of someone else pulling something. Whenever we weren't sure who the killers were or why they were killing, it would be impossible.

But now? We finally managed to hit a point where everyone trusted one another enough to do it. If you asked me a few weeks ago, I would have never thought it was impossible. People didn't look away only because it was you, stupid. It may have made it easier for some, but it was an actual effort of a group of different people who finally came to the same conclusion.

[sengokus]

[oof.

mineo listens at least, quietly and - the argument works well enough. the storm of his emotions does calm a little, testament enough to the fact that he can believe in what takeru's saying. it's always easier anyway, to assume in the goodness of others. so he just settles for holding him a little closer even as he pouts some more]

I guess, I just....

[ . . . . no he doesn't have anything actually, he's just whining. there's a little bit of a huff before he nods.]

.... No. I know you're right.

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I'm not saying you can't feel torn about it. What happened is something that only you can figure out your own feelings about, even if other people try to help you get there.

[ there's a pause, and he places a hand on mineo's cheek. ]

But the situation this week was something different than the previous ones. For once, it wasn't something that was done sneakily and for someone's own personal gain. And it's not even a case of us doing nothing at all in trial-- they actually did figure out what happened. [ he uh. is not really happy when he says this. he's still so mad. ] And that's what we agreed to do. Figure out what happened. It was up to everyone to choose what to do with that information, and they did.

[sengokus]

[there is both an emotional equivalent of a wince and also a real wince about takeru being mad.... he is still so mad.... but it also doesn't stop him from leaning into the touch automatically, turning his face into takeru's palm for a second as if to hide briefly.

though he turns back to meet his eyes again after a moment]

.... yeah. I know if I was on the other side, I'd be saying the same thing. Hell, it's what I'd tell to Vira-san and she was actually there.

[though that's a secret mineo's not about to spill to anyone else. he sighs and presses a brief kiss to takeru's palm]

... you can yell at me more if you need to. I can take it.

[he can still tell takeru is so mad]

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If I saw you earlier than now, I would have yelled.

[ he'll just be upfront about it. he's aware he would have lashed out rather badly if he didn't have the time to sit on his feelings for a while ]

There are still other things I'd like to say. But... in the grand scheme of things, I don't think it's worth it at the moment. It's not something we really need.

[sengokus]

[a nod of understanding. mineo probably would have yelled back even though he didn't have a right to because he's an idiot and especially combative with takeru. it would've been bad.

but.

there is still some sense of discomfort.]

.... you can say them. [a little bit more nudging] I don't want you to sit on them, and have it fester.

You've always been honest with me, no matter how painful it was. I... don't really want you to stop now?

[not when mineo finally feels like maybe he can actually tackle takeru's criticisms to improve instead of just getting beat up by them and feeling worse]

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No, I think I need to consider what's legitimate and what's just petty.

[ he said what his main problems were, at least, so he doesn't really consider anything else as crucial to voice. ]

[sengokus]

[ . . . . . a sinking feeling because he imagines the petty list might get pretty long.

but he'll just let his head rest against takeru's shoulder again with a mumble]

Okay.... Sorry, Sasazuka-san....

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[ there is just

something about mineo saying that, that makes takeru pause and then turn so that he can actually kiss mineo. ]

[sengokus]

[the feeling is: ?????????????????

but of course he kisses back, confused as he might be]

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[ when he pulls away, his feelings are... actually, a little conflicted, like he just got caught doing something he wasn't supposed to. ]

Idiot.

[sengokus]

[ . . . . the confused feelings get worse hello.

and mineo just tilts his head at that as he pulls takeru closer to him anyway, so there's no space between them]

What's wrong?

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[ he buries his face in mineo's chest. ]

Hm?

[sengokus]

[he allows it, bringing up a hand to run through takeru's hair automatically but]

.... do you feel guilty about something....?

[he really can't even begin to parse what that emotion was, or why]

[dotcom]

I wouldn't say that, no.

Mostly just wondering how strong my resolve is.

[sengokus]

[ . . . . ]

What does your resolve have to do with kissing me... Did I do something wrong... Are you that mad....

[dotcom]

Don't worry about it.

[ he will just go back to pressing his face against mineo's chest. ]

[sengokus]

I'm worrying about it...

[and takeru can probably feel the flare of stubbornness. there is no escape. he doesn't actually move takeru, letting his head rest against his but]

What's up?

[dotcom]

You really worry over everything.

[ it comes out muffled. ]

[sengokus]

I do, especially when it comes to you.

[because he really doesn't trust leaving takeru be when it comes to emotional stuff]

I actually don't think I'm a huge worrywart or anything but you make me nervous. [ . . . ] So what's up with your resolve...?

[dotcom]

No, I think this one I'm going to keep to myself for now.

[ mineo isn't the only one who's stubborn. ]

[sengokus]

[hrrrmgghgh]

Takeruuu.

[he DOES NOT like this but takeru doesn't need emotionshare for that]

Is it bad?

[dotcom]

[ it's fine. it would have never even come up if emotionshare wasn't a bitch. ]

It's not bad.

[sengokus]

Are you sure?

[mineo's not sure and he's just going to try to move his head closer to takeru's]

Is it why you've been less touchy with me?

[he can't say he's Noticed because they had to deal with mineo killing a man but. he's noticed a little]

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[ he just

makes a sound that is most likely him confirming. ]