Well... it'll at least give us something to check tomorrow.
[so they can have at least one item of discussion. he sighs.]
Ah - but I did end up talking to White-kun... I don't know if he's going to tell a lot of people this, so pretty much assume everything moving forward's a secret. I'm gonna guess he's figured out we talk, though.
[mineo has like. three people he trusts and takeru is the most obvious one.]
But he got a power with two weeks of expiration, after the four of them got back yesterday. He doesn't know much about what they went through, but I'm pretty sure it was his world and he thinks they'll be able to figure that out too.
And he has no idea why you were there. He seemed surprised when I mentioned it. And he told me that he doesn't have any reason to want you dead. [a beat] I believe him.
[normally it would take a lot more convincing from mineo but he doesn't think white would lie to him specifically]
the past week clicks into place after that, and he still doesn't stand or follow after, he gives takeru some of that space that he purposefully put between them. but his hands do clench into fists and he scowls.]
That's—
[infuriating. it pisses him off all the more that he didn't know, but how could he? there are some things you don't want to tell someone for as long as possible. he knows that too.]
... I wish you'd told me.
[briefly. but he'll move on.]
There's no White-kun could've known that, though. Even when I asked Sheila-san what happened, she was really vague and didn't mention that at all. I doubt Vira-san or Harrow-san would've been more forthcoming.
They wouldn't have. If they told anyone, it most likely would only be someone really close to them. None of them even mentioned the child to anyone else.
[ so. they're keeping things very under wraps. ]
So, if it's related, then it's most likely that part had nothing to do with White. I'll see if the Avatars have any theories.
[ ...
he turns to look at him. ]
I didn't want to tell you. It's not something I wanted to talk about.
[ he goes quiet again after that. honestly, he lets the silence stretch long enough that it probably seems like he's done talking.
but eventually, there's a sigh. ]
This morning I got a memory back. I believe it went missing right after what happened. Vira also couldn't remember something, but Harrowhark already has a bad memory so she couldn't confirm for us.
But because I got it back, I can... explain some things now.
Are you really going to give me an out, after everything?
[ it's a genuine question.
because of course takeru doesn't want to. he wouldn't keep it so close to his chest if he ever wanted to. but it's so obvious that there's something wrong, and he can't be sure that something might not happen again. ]
[to both. but he'll shift in his seat and tilt his head as he looks directly at takeru]
But it's more your style to kick me until I explain something - but even then, you're letting it be fair even though there's something you want to know from me too. To be honest, if you really tried, I'd probably tell you and give up the advantage.
[he's not calculating enough to hold onto it even when he knows it exists - not when the person asking is someone he trusts.]
The least I can do is wait for you. I'm not gonna say I'm your partner just to be an asshole to you about something that's clearly important to you.
I lived in America for a while. I only came back to Japan very recently before X-Day started. But in America, I accidentally stumbled into a gang fight. Someone important to me was shot and killed.
[ it's said clinically, like he's reciting the plot of a novel. ]
No one else can really manage that right now, but I'll be careful.
[as far as he can tell, no one else has a gun.]
... and if I have to shoot?
[because he's not flinching away from the chance of it, even though he's refrained every single time takeru was in the room. mineo will (saeki voice) shoot to protect.]
[ he'll be honest about that. his expression breaks, and the absolute disgust at the thought is apparent on his face. ]
But I'm not going to ask you to stop using your main mode of protecting yourself. If something happens, I'll trust you to make the best possible decision in that moment.
... I'll worry about it - but I'll try to avoid it anyway.
[he'd rather punch someone if it means that takeru won't get triggered, but he also knows there's some situations where a gun would just be a (somehow) safer and immediate solution]
.... you want to know about why Adonis judged me, right?
[ . . . . he shifts then, letting his shoulders flatten out as he thinks about it.]
.... we all kept reminding Hoshino about the collar - but I think I somehow forget and let my mouth just blabber on. She found out about... a couple things. She talked to Satake-san, my old boss in Field Ops. He told her about how Fuji-senpai and I were close, and then about how....
When they released the April video, I recognized him. I said we had to get working ASAP, because I wouldn't mistake Fuji-senpai for anybody else. Higher ups said no, 'cause Adonis still wasn't attached as a name yet. So they worked me like a dog until the May video came out. And... you saw what happened after. [when mineo found the body]
... of everyone, I should be the most intense about X-Day cases, probably. It's - so personal for me, I should be making more progress.
[takeru would know - he's the one who scolded mineo every time he seemed like he was listlessly dragging his feet]
... but I told Hoshino to give it up. That Yanagi-senpai would switch her to a different case, because she wouldn't make any progress with me. Because I knew I was dead weight. And then I left the office.
[he turns his hand over if only to look at his Sloth tattoo. yeah. it's a sin that makes sense for him.]
takeru knew that something was wrong with the timeline between them, mostly since things didn't really add up since mineo first insisted to find out what takeru was doing before coming here. but this pretty much confirms it.
he's not sure what to think about that. he files it away to ponder later, when he has time to dedicate to it. ]
And they got you.
[ mineo was punished for something that he's currently representing. it's... probably a terrible reminder, to see that tattoo. ]
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[so they can have at least one item of discussion. he sighs.]
Ah - but I did end up talking to White-kun... I don't know if he's going to tell a lot of people this, so pretty much assume everything moving forward's a secret. I'm gonna guess he's figured out we talk, though.
[mineo has like. three people he trusts and takeru is the most obvious one.]
But he got a power with two weeks of expiration, after the four of them got back yesterday. He doesn't know much about what they went through, but I'm pretty sure it was his world and he thinks they'll be able to figure that out too.
And he has no idea why you were there. He seemed surprised when I mentioned it. And he told me that he doesn't have any reason to want you dead. [a beat] I believe him.
[normally it would take a lot more convincing from mineo but he doesn't think white would lie to him specifically]
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[ he goes quiet, and then he stands up to walk across the room. ]
The only thing I can think of is that maybe I was referencing what happened to my group.
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it takes a second for it to click into place but.]
Takeru?
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Starved to death. So, technically I did die here, so maybe it was referencing that? Even if it wasn't Gu Yun's fault...
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the past week clicks into place after that, and he still doesn't stand or follow after, he gives takeru some of that space that he purposefully put between them. but his hands do clench into fists and he scowls.]
That's—
[infuriating. it pisses him off all the more that he didn't know, but how could he? there are some things you don't want to tell someone for as long as possible. he knows that too.]
... I wish you'd told me.
[briefly. but he'll move on.]
There's no White-kun could've known that, though. Even when I asked Sheila-san what happened, she was really vague and didn't mention that at all. I doubt Vira-san or Harrow-san would've been more forthcoming.
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[ so. they're keeping things very under wraps. ]
So, if it's related, then it's most likely that part had nothing to do with White. I'll see if the Avatars have any theories.
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he turns to look at him. ]
I didn't want to tell you. It's not something I wanted to talk about.
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mineo will nod along and then - just pause when takeru looks back at him.]
... I get it.
But you told me that I should've told you about when I died - so it's about half the same sentiment. Even then... I get why you didn't.
[a wish is just a wish, if only for what he could've avoided saying, but more than that - ]
... thanks for telling me now. We don't have to keep talking about it.
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but eventually, there's a sigh. ]
This morning I got a memory back. I believe it went missing right after what happened. Vira also couldn't remember something, but Harrowhark already has a bad memory so she couldn't confirm for us.
But because I got it back, I can... explain some things now.
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Is that why Sheila-san couldn't remember her husband?
[damn.
well.]
... do you want to?
[explain, that is.
it's not thursday. so he's not antsy about them running out of time. he's not going to force takeru to tell him anything else he doesn't want to.]
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[ it's a genuine question.
because of course takeru doesn't want to. he wouldn't keep it so close to his chest if he ever wanted to. but it's so obvious that there's something wrong, and he can't be sure that something might not happen again. ]
You want me to tell you.
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[to both. but he'll shift in his seat and tilt his head as he looks directly at takeru]
But it's more your style to kick me until I explain something - but even then, you're letting it be fair even though there's something you want to know from me too. To be honest, if you really tried, I'd probably tell you and give up the advantage.
[he's not calculating enough to hold onto it even when he knows it exists - not when the person asking is someone he trusts.]
The least I can do is wait for you. I'm not gonna say I'm your partner just to be an asshole to you about something that's clearly important to you.
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I lived in America for a while. I only came back to Japan very recently before X-Day started. But in America, I accidentally stumbled into a gang fight. Someone important to me was shot and killed.
[ it's said clinically, like he's reciting the plot of a novel. ]
I have PTSD.
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I'm sorry that happened, Takeru. [genuinely, because that's difficult.]
.... what do you want me to do - if something comes up again?
[he tried to distract takeru in trial and he doesn't expect guns to come up much more when he's the only one who has one but... just in case.]
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[ it's more the context, than anything. seeing someone threatening to shoot people is different than just seeing a gun in a holster.
... but. ]
Just don't get shot.
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No one else can really manage that right now, but I'll be careful.
[as far as he can tell, no one else has a gun.]
... and if I have to shoot?
[because he's not flinching away from the chance of it, even though he's refrained every single time takeru was in the room. mineo will (saeki voice) shoot to protect.]
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[ he'll be honest about that. his expression breaks, and the absolute disgust at the thought is apparent on his face. ]
But I'm not going to ask you to stop using your main mode of protecting yourself. If something happens, I'll trust you to make the best possible decision in that moment.
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.... I won't unless I have to. But if it comes to saving a life or not, I'm going to act.
Do you want me to warn you beforehand if I can, if you're in the room?
[it wouldn't be more than just a few seconds heads up, but.]
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[ and he wouldn't want whoever it is to wise up to what's happening, depending on what the situation is like. ]
Don't worry about it.
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[he'd rather punch someone if it means that takeru won't get triggered, but he also knows there's some situations where a gun would just be a (somehow) safer and immediate solution]
... thank you, for telling me.
[he knows how hard it was to even get this far]
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[ again, he did not want to.
but it seems like it'll be easier to push past this if mineo isn't constantly wondering about it. ]
So we can move on now.
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[because he can give takeru space when the other is talking about something difficult or painful -
but mineo's not the same. he'd rather feel like he's talking to a friend, than giving a report]
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he doesn't move at first, but he'll eventually walk over and sit. ]
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[ . . . . he shifts then, letting his shoulders flatten out as he thinks about it.]
.... we all kept reminding Hoshino about the collar - but I think I somehow forget and let my mouth just blabber on. She found out about... a couple things. She talked to Satake-san, my old boss in Field Ops. He told her about how Fuji-senpai and I were close, and then about how....
When they released the April video, I recognized him. I said we had to get working ASAP, because I wouldn't mistake Fuji-senpai for anybody else. Higher ups said no, 'cause Adonis still wasn't attached as a name yet. So they worked me like a dog until the May video came out. And... you saw what happened after. [when mineo found the body]
... of everyone, I should be the most intense about X-Day cases, probably. It's - so personal for me, I should be making more progress.
[takeru would know - he's the one who scolded mineo every time he seemed like he was listlessly dragging his feet]
... but I told Hoshino to give it up. That Yanagi-senpai would switch her to a different case, because she wouldn't make any progress with me. Because I knew I was dead weight. And then I left the office.
[he turns his hand over if only to look at his Sloth tattoo. yeah. it's a sin that makes sense for him.]
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takeru knew that something was wrong with the timeline between them, mostly since things didn't really add up since mineo first insisted to find out what takeru was doing before coming here. but this pretty much confirms it.
he's not sure what to think about that. he files it away to ponder later, when he has time to dedicate to it. ]
And they got you.
[ mineo was punished for something that he's currently representing. it's... probably a terrible reminder, to see that tattoo. ]
Do you still consider yourself dead weight?
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