Shut up! People ask me about my love life way too often?! Like - come on, my personal drama wasn't relevant to the trial! Why does it keep happening?!
And why do people keep kissing me this week?! I know we're all indulging more but can we just - take some inhibitions and put them back?! Please put them back!!
[HE WAS HOLDING ONTO SO MUCH HE'S SUFFERING SO BADLY]
[ . . . . . he pauses for a second before he also sighs. wow he didn't want to give takeru this much detail but.]
.... it's nothing. Endorsi and I aren't going to work out... I've given up on that for a few weeks now. [since he texted takeru, really. he doesn't seem that heartbroken about it] But you know - some feelings take longer to die, and she caught me saying something stupid, so I just told her.
[he's at least familiar with the general sense of heartache]
I already told White I can't give him an answer until everything's over and even then... [he knows how. impossible it probably is. given the whole different worlds thing. there's a longer pause before he admits - ]
.... I thought you might still need me. [for indulgences.] I shouldn't be thinking about dating anyone here anyway - but I especially can't when my partner needs to catch up a little.
I'm not about to do anything that'd make being here harder for you.
[ he raises an eyebrow. this is so exhausting. he just wanted to briefly make fun of mineo but now they're discussion feelings.
he should have expected this and yet ]
I'll figure something else out. I don't particularly care if you actually date them or what. I won't lie and say I'm invested in either Endorsi or White.
[ he does not like white at all and his opinion on endorsi is also low because she just keeps bringing up mineo ]
But, I won't be in the way of whatever the fuck you're doing. So I'll figure something else out.
.... I'm sure you'll be able to. [because takeru is resourceful and smart.]
But you can't be in the way of something that isn't happening, and doesn't matter for as long as we have wishes we need to accomplish.
[is mineo a romantic? yes. is he enough of a romantic that he'll put their wishes in jeopardy for it? no and that's how he's trying to use his last two braincells.]
I said I'd help you, and I'm taking that seriously. Whatever you need from me.
[takeru literally brought them on this topic??? but now it sure is a fucking test of who's more stubborn]
I don't think we should.
What - do you wanna try just seeing if napping in the middle of the day will count for your indulgences next week?
[he won't protest if they just. don't do slut-adjacent things anymore. but the idea of him being brushed away from helping takeru pisses him off a bit]
he's just going to reach out to catch takeru's wrist]
You can't just shut me out every time I say something you don't like - what even was it this time?! I thought I was making the most practical decision!
No, it is pretty practical. I'd applaud you for it, but you're rudely holding onto me at the moment?
[ give him his hand back ]
I just think that if you like someone, you should just go for it sometimes. [ ... ] And even if the two of you decide to hold off, that's fine. I just don't want to be part of the reason for that decision.
[ . . . . it's such a surprisingly sentimental reason that mineo does, in fact, let go of takeru.]
.... I don't mean to use you as an excuse or anything. That's not it.
[even if it's hard for him to explain exactly what it is, because that also feels - sentimental. fragile. didn't he already do the sincere confession thing earlier this week? it's not even that he really struggles with it - with most people. it's harder with takeru.
he finds himself hesitating for once, choking on his own sentiment. he wonders if he can get it out during this conversation - if he should.]
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and mumbles something]
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Say it louder.
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[oh now he can raise his voice
he'll lift his head then and just shove his head in his hand]
.... Confessed to Endorsi on Sunday, White confessed to me on Wednesday! I've been trying to respectfully ignore both all fucking week!
[FUCK WEEK 3]
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because he's
laughing so badly ]
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Stop! You bullied me into telling you!! I hate it!
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[ he lifts his head up. wow. ]
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How am I stupid?! What have I done, huh?!
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[ he still just. sounds like he thinks this is hilarious?
but then he goes quiet and looks back at his phone.]
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Shut up! People ask me about my love life way too often?! Like - come on, my personal drama wasn't relevant to the trial! Why does it keep happening?!
And why do people keep kissing me this week?! I know we're all indulging more but can we just - take some inhibitions and put them back?! Please put them back!!
[HE WAS HOLDING ONTO SO MUCH HE'S SUFFERING SO BADLY]
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[ funny. ]
I'll stop biting you and won't kiss you again, so you won't have to worry about it from me.
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sighs at takeru]
.... don't take this any weird way - [because there is just. so much gay energy in what he's about to say that even he perceives it]
.... but you don't have to. Stop, I mean. [GOD. he's flustering]
With both of them I - [ . . . . ] - it's not like that. Because letting feelings or anything rule over our wishes is....
None of us can risk it.
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he just. sighs. ]
I don't want to be in a ten foot radius of whatever love triangle you have going on here.
[ even if it's just for indulgences..... ]
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.... it's nothing. Endorsi and I aren't going to work out... I've given up on that for a few weeks now. [since he texted takeru, really. he doesn't seem that heartbroken about it] But you know - some feelings take longer to die, and she caught me saying something stupid, so I just told her.
[he's at least familiar with the general sense of heartache]
I already told White I can't give him an answer until everything's over and even then... [he knows how. impossible it probably is. given the whole different worlds thing. there's a longer pause before he admits - ]
.... I thought you might still need me. [for indulgences.] I shouldn't be thinking about dating anyone here anyway - but I especially can't when my partner needs to catch up a little.
I'm not about to do anything that'd make being here harder for you.
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he should have expected this and yet ]
I'll figure something else out. I don't particularly care if you actually date them or what. I won't lie and say I'm invested in either Endorsi or White.
[ he does not like white at all and his opinion on endorsi is also low because she just keeps bringing up mineo ]
But, I won't be in the way of whatever the fuck you're doing. So I'll figure something else out.
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.... I'm sure you'll be able to. [because takeru is resourceful and smart.]
But you can't be in the way of something that isn't happening, and doesn't matter for as long as we have wishes we need to accomplish.
[is mineo a romantic? yes. is he enough of a romantic that he'll put their wishes in jeopardy for it? no and that's how he's trying to use his last two braincells.]
I said I'd help you, and I'm taking that seriously. Whatever you need from me.
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he has already made his decision here, but he knows arguing isn't going to get anywhere. so he just shrugs. ]
We can change the topic again.
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I don't think we should.
What - do you wanna try just seeing if napping in the middle of the day will count for your indulgences next week?
[he won't protest if they just. don't do slut-adjacent things anymore. but the idea of him being brushed away from helping takeru pisses him off a bit]
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[ he's going to get up from his seat and pocket his phone. ]
Problem solved.
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no he's getting up too]
- What are you pissed at me for now?!
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[ but mineo wouldn't really understand.
but he's going to just walk out of the room now, aiming to head for the sleep bay. ]
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Then at least explain them! Takeru...!!
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No.
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he's just going to reach out to catch takeru's wrist]
You can't just shut me out every time I say something you don't like - what even was it this time?! I thought I was making the most practical decision!
[SO HOW DID HE STILL FUCK UP]
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[ give him his hand back ]
I just think that if you like someone, you should just go for it sometimes. [ ... ] And even if the two of you decide to hold off, that's fine. I just don't want to be part of the reason for that decision.
It's not something I'll appreciate.
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.... I don't mean to use you as an excuse or anything. That's not it.
[even if it's hard for him to explain exactly what it is, because that also feels - sentimental. fragile. didn't he already do the sincere confession thing earlier this week? it's not even that he really struggles with it - with most people. it's harder with takeru.
he finds himself hesitating for once, choking on his own sentiment. he wonders if he can get it out during this conversation - if he should.]
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