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[sengokus]

[honestly mineo's glass is much less full because he's not daydrinking before going to kill a man]

You mean when it was nice week and I still ate sand?

[dotcom]

You can eat this sand too, if you want.

[ he pats it. ]

[sengokus]

[IRRITATION]

Don't make me waste the alcohol by tossing it at you.

[HE DRINKS SOME MORE OF HIS OWN don't drink just bc you're annoyed mineo]

[dotcom]

You're the one who ate it in the first place.

[ he's just saying?? ]

[sengokus]

[ . . . . ]

It was a very strong impulse...

[he couldn't resist it]

[dotcom]

[ he just leans over to press a quick kiss to mineo's shoulder ]

Uh huh.

[sengokus]

[he jumps a little, like every gesture of affection still surprises him but - in a very soft way? he's flustered but aggressively looking away.....]

A-Anyway, is that what you were thinking about? Last time we were here? Well, not exactly here, but...

[dotcom]

[ he nods, contemplative, looking back to the ocean. ]

Just thinking about how things have changed since then.

[ and since they got here in general. ]

[sengokus]

That was... what, two weeks ago...?

[ . . . . and then in a dawning sort of shock]

Was that... two weeks ago...?

[dotcom]

[ he takes a sip :) ]

It was two weeks ago.

[sengokus]

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I didn't want to admit I liked kissing you two weeks ago?

[he didn't mean to say that out loud]

[dotcom]

[ he takes another sip ]

You didn't.

[sengokus]

[oh my god]

Don't give me that?! I don't even know if you liked kissing me back then?! It can't just be my fault!

[dotcom]

You really are an idiot. As if I would have kissed you as often as I did.

[ like

even with indulgences, if he wasn't into it, he would find someone else? ]

[sengokus]

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What....?

[dotcom]

How is this such a surprise?

[ mineo takeru was so mad when you didn't admit it ]

[sengokus]

I don't know how I was supposed to see this coming?! You're so mean to me! You even told me no more unless I initiated...?!

[dotcom]

Because I wanted to see if you would have.

And in the end, I'm still the one who mostly always had to initiate anyway.

[sengokus]

Are you getting mad about this too?!

[dotcom]

I'm just pointing out that I end up doing a lot of work here.

[sengokus]

It's work?!

[hgghhhh he feels guilty now.... but then he'll falter - there's a few different nervous feelings before they eventually get squished down. forcefully. and then he'll shift so he's sitting closer to takeru then and -

lean down to give him a kiss, which is unfortunately just very sweet and warm more than anything else]

... I can try to more....

[dotcom]

[ he kisses back, because of course he does.

very terrible how used to kissing mineo he is. ]

Well, I won't make you if you're not up for it.

[sengokus]

[ . . . . . he doesn't like how that was said? there's a little irritation in his chest, but it's not directed at takeru at least. so instead he just kisses him again.]

... that's not it.

I probably want to more than I should.

[ . . . funny how just a week ago they were talking about this, actually? about how they'd need to talk if anything changed about their partnership and indulgences.

things change so fast.]

[dotcom]

[ ...

he sighs, and then sets his glass down. ]

What's the limit in wanting it then?

[sengokus]

[ . . . . he hesitates for just a second -

but then he'll press more kisses to takeru's face. against his cheeks, the corner of his mouth, his forehead. they're light, and perhaps more reminiscent of the uncertain yet certain kisses he gave when they were in the observing room. between kisses, he murmurs softly]

... until I can be someone who can give all of myself away without worrying about if I'm good enough.

[because right now he's not good enough. he has too many things to figure out about himself, and about the mysteries that took his life in the first place.]

And until we can promise that nothing will ever matter as much as each other, because that's the type of love I believe in, and I don't want to give or receive anything less.

[it's funny.

how easily mineo could declare that nothing and no one matters as much as takeru - here. but once they leave, aren't there so many other things that they have to worry about? if takeru will run away, if mineo will be able to keep up. but if it's love - the type of love that mineo has always dreamed about wanting... mineo can't accept conditions like that being attached.

and so, until then - ]

I have to be careful about how much I want you.