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[ . . . oh.
with his hand over mineo's heart - he'll probably feel the way that it skips, that its rhythm stutters under the weight of takeru's words. his own feelings share that sense of surprise, but they also carry a sense of being touched, surprisingly validated, and like the words are nearly enough to warm his heart so much that he forgets to doubt.
(... only nearly though. there's still some sense of uncertainty about himself, if he's doing enough. that'll probably never go away.)
he bows their heads together and he can't help but reflect - ]
... it's unfair. How much you can affect me.
[when it was takeru's words that used to reopen all his old wounds - but it's so different now, when he only feels reassured by them. even if he can't promise anything about a future together - not in such a romantic sense, even knowing these feelings....
there's no denying that takeru has a certain hold on him.]
with his hand over mineo's heart - he'll probably feel the way that it skips, that its rhythm stutters under the weight of takeru's words. his own feelings share that sense of surprise, but they also carry a sense of being touched, surprisingly validated, and like the words are nearly enough to warm his heart so much that he forgets to doubt.
(... only nearly though. there's still some sense of uncertainty about himself, if he's doing enough. that'll probably never go away.)
he bows their heads together and he can't help but reflect - ]
... it's unfair. How much you can affect me.
[when it was takeru's words that used to reopen all his old wounds - but it's so different now, when he only feels reassured by them. even if he can't promise anything about a future together - not in such a romantic sense, even knowing these feelings....
there's no denying that takeru has a certain hold on him.]
I think you make it too easy.
[ it was rather frustratingly easy, to get this attached to someone who only got on his nerves for so long. it's almost laughable? like someone out there is just playing some cosmic prank by dangling enomoto mineo in front of him, and takeru is just waiting for him to be yanked away. ]
Anyway, you need to stop being so stupid about why someone would like you. It's like you're begging for me to praise you.
[ it's said with a huff, but he gives mineo another kiss right after. ]
[ it was rather frustratingly easy, to get this attached to someone who only got on his nerves for so long. it's almost laughable? like someone out there is just playing some cosmic prank by dangling enomoto mineo in front of him, and takeru is just waiting for him to be yanked away. ]
Anyway, you need to stop being so stupid about why someone would like you. It's like you're begging for me to praise you.
[ it's said with a huff, but he gives mineo another kiss right after. ]
[this time, as with every time aside from the first time, he kisses back. though this time, takeru can feel it - the warmth, the affection, the surge of emotion that comes with the gesture. the idea that anything about this was easy, or that it's not a miracle that they've managed to make this work somehow.]
... it's not on purpose. [he speaks softly against takeru's lips, pausing briefly to kiss him again.] I think I could start wanting your praise too much.
[it's too risky - given everything else. the fact that mineo has other people waiting on his answer, and the fact that takeru might still run at any moment.]
You're easy to get lost in.
[he kisses him again anyway, like that's any simpler at all.]
... it's not on purpose. [he speaks softly against takeru's lips, pausing briefly to kiss him again.] I think I could start wanting your praise too much.
[it's too risky - given everything else. the fact that mineo has other people waiting on his answer, and the fact that takeru might still run at any moment.]
You're easy to get lost in.
[he kisses him again anyway, like that's any simpler at all.]
[it's not stupid because mineo's already committing murder later that day he doesn't really need more violence beforehand
but he'll
whirl around to not look but there's a sense of embarrassment coming off of him as he coughs into his arm. it's literally nothing he hasn't seen before and yet]
Uh - anyway! Yeah! Beach day!
but he'll
whirl around to not look but there's a sense of embarrassment coming off of him as he coughs into his arm. it's literally nothing he hasn't seen before and yet]
Uh - anyway! Yeah! Beach day!
Good boy.
[ stop treating him like a dog.
but he will just rest against mineo for a moment, taking the time to just press against him and take in the emotions. he allows himself a few seconds of something warm, and kind, and there's just a pang of hurt at the uncertainty of the future. ]
... I think that-- [ there's a pause, and then he changes his mind. ] Well. Just stay close to me.
[ stop treating him like a dog.
but he will just rest against mineo for a moment, taking the time to just press against him and take in the emotions. he allows himself a few seconds of something warm, and kind, and there's just a pang of hurt at the uncertainty of the future. ]
... I think that-- [ there's a pause, and then he changes his mind. ] Well. Just stay close to me.
[it's funny.
the pang of hurt is mirrored in mineo's own chest - like he's a little upset that he doesn't know how soon or when he might lose this. he's stubborn, sure, but even if he chases takeru forever if he ends up with adonis, it'll be hard to find a moment again like this. even if they hurt each other and they forgive... isn't that all the more reason to hold onto this moment before they have more grudges to hold?
he holds takeru closer then, as if that'll be enough to express his feelings - the same singular wish of stay with me even if he doesn't want to bring them to his lips again to start yet another argument.]
.... I will.
[for as long as he can, and longer still. he presses a kiss to takeru's hair.]
.... what were you going to say?
the pang of hurt is mirrored in mineo's own chest - like he's a little upset that he doesn't know how soon or when he might lose this. he's stubborn, sure, but even if he chases takeru forever if he ends up with adonis, it'll be hard to find a moment again like this. even if they hurt each other and they forgive... isn't that all the more reason to hold onto this moment before they have more grudges to hold?
he holds takeru closer then, as if that'll be enough to express his feelings - the same singular wish of stay with me even if he doesn't want to bring them to his lips again to start yet another argument.]
.... I will.
[for as long as he can, and longer still. he presses a kiss to takeru's hair.]
.... what were you going to say?
[he's
laughing so hard. he's dying. there's a fucking feeling of self-satisfied victory like every horrible thing takeru's done to him was settled with this one dunk.
he clutches his stomach as he continues to mcfucking lose it]
Ha - your face...! Hahaha!
laughing so hard. he's dying. there's a fucking feeling of self-satisfied victory like every horrible thing takeru's done to him was settled with this one dunk.
he clutches his stomach as he continues to mcfucking lose it]
Ha - your face...! Hahaha!
[ there's a pause, as he briefly grapples on whether or not to say anything, before he shakes his head. ]
It wasn't that important.
[ it's not exactly a lie, really. it's not that important in the grand scheme of things.
and before mineo can comment further on it, he's just going to reach down and return to his previously abandoned task of trying to remove mineo's pants. ]
It wasn't that important.
[ it's not exactly a lie, really. it's not that important in the grand scheme of things.
and before mineo can comment further on it, he's just going to reach down and return to his previously abandoned task of trying to remove mineo's pants. ]
[ . . . he doesn't say it - but there is a generally sense of disbelief. regardless, he decides that maybe it's for the best if there are still just a few things left unsaid between them. so he lets takeru change their focus, instead just moving to press their mouths together again
anyway after this very soft thread, mineo gets railed on the desk and then everyone's christian so we can leave it now]
anyway after this very soft thread, mineo gets railed on the desk and then everyone's christian so we can leave it now]
[at least he makes some attempt at catching takeru
he's not trying as hard as he normally would so who can say if it was super successful]
I don't want to hear that from you!
[ - well, he's complaining but his emotions still suggest he's having fun, unfortunately]
he's not trying as hard as he normally would so who can say if it was super successful]
I don't want to hear that from you!
[ - well, he's complaining but his emotions still suggest he's having fun, unfortunately]
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