... you're just a good person. Who's stubborn, but mostly for reasons that people can look up to. You make people feel cared for, but you also know when to stand up to others even when you're friends.
[ he pauses, trying to figure out how to word this next bit. ]
I think you're good at making people feel actually seen, and acknowledged. And that even if they don't have anyone, that you'll be behind them. You're enthusiastic and kind-- probably too much? It's kind of obnoxious? But sometimes it's that level of annoying that's needed.
[ his hand moves, and he presses it over mineo's heart. ]
You know how to cut through something that's dark.
with his hand over mineo's heart - he'll probably feel the way that it skips, that its rhythm stutters under the weight of takeru's words. his own feelings share that sense of surprise, but they also carry a sense of being touched, surprisingly validated, and like the words are nearly enough to warm his heart so much that he forgets to doubt.
(... only nearly though. there's still some sense of uncertainty about himself, if he's doing enough. that'll probably never go away.)
he bows their heads together and he can't help but reflect - ]
... it's unfair. How much you can affect me.
[when it was takeru's words that used to reopen all his old wounds - but it's so different now, when he only feels reassured by them. even if he can't promise anything about a future together - not in such a romantic sense, even knowing these feelings....
there's no denying that takeru has a certain hold on him.]
[ it was rather frustratingly easy, to get this attached to someone who only got on his nerves for so long. it's almost laughable? like someone out there is just playing some cosmic prank by dangling enomoto mineo in front of him, and takeru is just waiting for him to be yanked away. ]
Anyway, you need to stop being so stupid about why someone would like you. It's like you're begging for me to praise you.
[ it's said with a huff, but he gives mineo another kiss right after. ]
[this time, as with every time aside from the first time, he kisses back. though this time, takeru can feel it - the warmth, the affection, the surge of emotion that comes with the gesture. the idea that anything about this was easy, or that it's not a miracle that they've managed to make this work somehow.]
... it's not on purpose. [he speaks softly against takeru's lips, pausing briefly to kiss him again.] I think I could start wanting your praise too much.
[it's too risky - given everything else. the fact that mineo has other people waiting on his answer, and the fact that takeru might still run at any moment.]
You're easy to get lost in.
[he kisses him again anyway, like that's any simpler at all.]
but he will just rest against mineo for a moment, taking the time to just press against him and take in the emotions. he allows himself a few seconds of something warm, and kind, and there's just a pang of hurt at the uncertainty of the future. ]
... I think that-- [ there's a pause, and then he changes his mind. ] Well. Just stay close to me.
the pang of hurt is mirrored in mineo's own chest - like he's a little upset that he doesn't know how soon or when he might lose this. he's stubborn, sure, but even if he chases takeru forever if he ends up with adonis, it'll be hard to find a moment again like this. even if they hurt each other and they forgive... isn't that all the more reason to hold onto this moment before they have more grudges to hold?
he holds takeru closer then, as if that'll be enough to express his feelings - the same singular wish of stay with me even if he doesn't want to bring them to his lips again to start yet another argument.]
.... I will.
[for as long as he can, and longer still. he presses a kiss to takeru's hair.]
[ there's a pause, as he briefly grapples on whether or not to say anything, before he shakes his head. ]
It wasn't that important.
[ it's not exactly a lie, really. it's not that important in the grand scheme of things.
and before mineo can comment further on it, he's just going to reach down and return to his previously abandoned task of trying to remove mineo's pants. ]
[ . . . he doesn't say it - but there is a generally sense of disbelief. regardless, he decides that maybe it's for the best if there are still just a few things left unsaid between them. so he lets takeru change their focus, instead just moving to press their mouths together again
anyway after this very soft thread, mineo gets railed on the desk and then everyone's christian so we can leave it now]
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[ he pauses, trying to figure out how to word this next bit. ]
I think you're good at making people feel actually seen, and acknowledged. And that even if they don't have anyone, that you'll be behind them. You're enthusiastic and kind-- probably too much? It's kind of obnoxious? But sometimes it's that level of annoying that's needed.
[ his hand moves, and he presses it over mineo's heart. ]
You know how to cut through something that's dark.
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with his hand over mineo's heart - he'll probably feel the way that it skips, that its rhythm stutters under the weight of takeru's words. his own feelings share that sense of surprise, but they also carry a sense of being touched, surprisingly validated, and like the words are nearly enough to warm his heart so much that he forgets to doubt.
(... only nearly though. there's still some sense of uncertainty about himself, if he's doing enough. that'll probably never go away.)
he bows their heads together and he can't help but reflect - ]
... it's unfair. How much you can affect me.
[when it was takeru's words that used to reopen all his old wounds - but it's so different now, when he only feels reassured by them. even if he can't promise anything about a future together - not in such a romantic sense, even knowing these feelings....
there's no denying that takeru has a certain hold on him.]
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[ it was rather frustratingly easy, to get this attached to someone who only got on his nerves for so long. it's almost laughable? like someone out there is just playing some cosmic prank by dangling enomoto mineo in front of him, and takeru is just waiting for him to be yanked away. ]
Anyway, you need to stop being so stupid about why someone would like you. It's like you're begging for me to praise you.
[ it's said with a huff, but he gives mineo another kiss right after. ]
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... it's not on purpose. [he speaks softly against takeru's lips, pausing briefly to kiss him again.] I think I could start wanting your praise too much.
[it's too risky - given everything else. the fact that mineo has other people waiting on his answer, and the fact that takeru might still run at any moment.]
You're easy to get lost in.
[he kisses him again anyway, like that's any simpler at all.]
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[ stop treating him like a dog.
but he will just rest against mineo for a moment, taking the time to just press against him and take in the emotions. he allows himself a few seconds of something warm, and kind, and there's just a pang of hurt at the uncertainty of the future. ]
... I think that-- [ there's a pause, and then he changes his mind. ] Well. Just stay close to me.
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the pang of hurt is mirrored in mineo's own chest - like he's a little upset that he doesn't know how soon or when he might lose this. he's stubborn, sure, but even if he chases takeru forever if he ends up with adonis, it'll be hard to find a moment again like this. even if they hurt each other and they forgive... isn't that all the more reason to hold onto this moment before they have more grudges to hold?
he holds takeru closer then, as if that'll be enough to express his feelings - the same singular wish of stay with me even if he doesn't want to bring them to his lips again to start yet another argument.]
.... I will.
[for as long as he can, and longer still. he presses a kiss to takeru's hair.]
.... what were you going to say?
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It wasn't that important.
[ it's not exactly a lie, really. it's not that important in the grand scheme of things.
and before mineo can comment further on it, he's just going to reach down and return to his previously abandoned task of trying to remove mineo's pants. ]
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anyway after this very soft thread, mineo gets railed on the desk and then everyone's christian so we can leave it now]