Arming civilians who aren't even trained to handle a deadly weapon is one of the most idiotic things the government could have come up with. It has done nothing to make Shinjuku safer, but they refuse to consider they made the wrong move.
[ ... ]
I simply want to return it back to normal. I don't care about Adonis, or their ideals.
[but it doesn't sound as angry as it could - like he's still thinking it over]
.... but it's not like the police or the government are faultless in the whole thing either.
[he won't agree with adonis' ideal of 'justice' - but it's hard when he doesn't know who's right anymore. if there's even a point to being 'right'.]
I wanna know why it's all happening, what it's even supposed to mean, and why people have to die as examples for it— .... 'cause someone I knew was part of April and May.
[maybe sasazuka knew that already - it wouldn't be impossible to find the records somewhere, mineo's sure. he's the one who handled the case work on it after all. but he thinks admitting that with his own words is... a start, if sasazuka's also giving him this much]
because sasazuka actually understands why you would want someone to die. he's never questioned why someone might follow adonis, when the organization might feel like the one thing to give you what you want the most.
does he think the head of the group has another agenda? it's highly likely. but for the pawns... ]
[a soft, affirming noise. he shuts his eye and listens to the crash of the waves, the sounds of the seabirds, like he's trying to remember simpler times at home, but.]
... couldn't be part of it anymore. Not like that - or when that person's crimes were brushed under the rug when he was part of the force, but they were used to make it so he wouldn't be claimed either.
[Just give it up, Enomoto.
he did, eventually.
but then he'll admit - ]
I'm not big enough to forgive whoever killed him either though.
[it's part of being stuck. haunted by your past, but unable to face forward. there's nowhere to go but standing still.]
[ it's a genuine question, his tone not harsh for once, like it normally is when he's talking to mineo. ]
So you owe forgiveness to someone who took something from you? Even if the person in question wasn't good, your feelings are more complicated than something that's black and white, isn't it?
[ even if the grey area can be more suffocating than people say. ]
[ . . . . because a good person could forgive someone, and a good person could look to the future.
takeru takes that notion and dumps it into the sea by pointing out that thinking in a binary doesn't do him any good though, that trying to hold onto absolutes is probably part of his problem.]
... they have their reasons too, don't they? If a bad cop stole something from you - stole everything maybe - that person's just taking their revenge too.
.... that's what it means to be getting serious about it, right?
[to not be stuck in this terrible in-between spot. he opens his mouth like he wants to say something - pauses like he's measuring his words.]
.... but that's what I want. To know the truth behind April and May, 'cause of my own personal tie to it. I'll decide what I want to do with the truth later.
[if that means revenge or -
. . . ]
I think we can both win. But if one skirts ahead of the other... if it's me, I'll try to get what you want, too.
[ they don't know how hard this will get later; they're definitely missing information here, and the longer they go without it the more concerned takeru becomes. he doesn't like not being able to see the whole picture.
[mineo's route literally ends in him trying to save the main antagonist who ruins his social standing and reputation just to make a point, complete with getting stabbed just because so
he
seems to pause at that]
.... it's not like I'm doing it on purpose...
And if I were to care about anybody here, why wouldn't it be you?
[he never wants to call takeru a friend to his face because that's fucking gross
but like
obviously he cares about this little gremlin monster]
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... don't like guns, right?
Since they became standard to carry, including for police after everything started.
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[ ... ]
I simply want to return it back to normal. I don't care about Adonis, or their ideals.
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[but it doesn't sound as angry as it could - like he's still thinking it over]
.... but it's not like the police or the government are faultless in the whole thing either.
[he won't agree with adonis' ideal of 'justice' - but it's hard when he doesn't know who's right anymore. if there's even a point to being 'right'.]
I wanna know why it's all happening, what it's even supposed to mean, and why people have to die as examples for it— .... 'cause someone I knew was part of April and May.
[maybe sasazuka knew that already - it wouldn't be impossible to find the records somewhere, mineo's sure. he's the one who handled the case work on it after all. but he thinks admitting that with his own words is... a start, if sasazuka's also giving him this much]
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because sasazuka actually understands why you would want someone to die. he's never questioned why someone might follow adonis, when the organization might feel like the one thing to give you what you want the most.
does he think the head of the group has another agenda? it's highly likely. but for the pawns... ]
And that's why you quit.
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[a soft, affirming noise. he shuts his eye and listens to the crash of the waves, the sounds of the seabirds, like he's trying to remember simpler times at home, but.]
... couldn't be part of it anymore. Not like that - or when that person's crimes were brushed under the rug when he was part of the force, but they were used to make it so he wouldn't be claimed either.
[Just give it up, Enomoto.
he did, eventually.
but then he'll admit - ]
I'm not big enough to forgive whoever killed him either though.
[it's part of being stuck. haunted by your past, but unable to face forward. there's nowhere to go but standing still.]
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[ it's a genuine question, his tone not harsh for once, like it normally is when he's talking to mineo. ]
So you owe forgiveness to someone who took something from you? Even if the person in question wasn't good, your feelings are more complicated than something that's black and white, isn't it?
[ even if the grey area can be more suffocating than people say. ]
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takeru takes that notion and dumps it into the sea by pointing out that thinking in a binary doesn't do him any good though, that trying to hold onto absolutes is probably part of his problem.]
... they have their reasons too, don't they? If a bad cop stole something from you - stole everything maybe - that person's just taking their revenge too.
[he sits up then, turning to face takeru.]
I just don't wanna be the same as them.
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[ he goes quiet, his attention refocusing on the fake ocean. he can't remember the last time he saw the actual thing, even before the quarantine. ]
We just need to figure out how to deal with people who chose differently so we can stop them.
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[to not be stuck in this terrible in-between spot. he opens his mouth like he wants to say something - pauses like he's measuring his words.]
.... but that's what I want. To know the truth behind April and May, 'cause of my own personal tie to it. I'll decide what I want to do with the truth later.
[if that means revenge or -
. . . ]
I think we can both win. But if one skirts ahead of the other... if it's me, I'll try to get what you want, too.
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You need to worry about yourself, idiot.
[ they don't know how hard this will get later; they're definitely missing information here, and the longer they go without it the more concerned takeru becomes. he doesn't like not being able to see the whole picture.
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What's that supposed to mean, huh?
I'm not saying it's gonna happen, but if it does, I'm not gonna leave you behind or anything.
[that just sounds like a generally terrible idea when they're both going to the same home]
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[ he sighs. be like takeru and don't give a shit generally? wow. ]
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he
seems to pause at that]
.... it's not like I'm doing it on purpose...
And if I were to care about anybody here, why wouldn't it be you?
[he never wants to call takeru a friend to his face because that's fucking gross
but like
obviously he cares about this little gremlin monster]
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I'm going to throw up...
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now he's embarrassed]
Oi, sh-shut up!! I didn't say anything weird!
[he
picks up some fake sand and throws it at takeru. pocket sand!!]
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[ he moves to get up and dust the fake sand off his clothes. bitch! ]
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[where is the dere, mineo]
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[ WHERE'S THE DERE ]