[ it's the only reason he actually announced his plan of maybe going to america instead of leaving quietly. because, even when he wants to be left alone, there's still that part that doesn't want mineo to let him go.
sometimes, you are very selfish even when you don't have the right to be. ]
[and mineo does let go of takeru's hands - but just for a moment. just so that he can loop his arm around takeru's waist instead, pulling him closer to remove some of the distance between them. some part of it is wanting to make up for all the ways that takeru seems to be pulling away - another part of it really is mineo acting selfishly.
he's gotten far too used to takeru being close enough to touch.]
But I do think you need to feel it for a little while - to face what you've done. Not forever, but you can't keep running, Takeru. [ . . . ] Isn't that what you used to get mad at me for?
[isn't it a little too familiar to watch someone get stuck in a cycle of not facing their problems?
even still - mineo just sighs and speaks softly]
.... but if you still want me, then you still have me, so you don't have to face it all alone.
because takeru has been very adamant that he didn't want mineo following him because of an obligation through partnership. takeru may be jealous and possessive, but at the end of the day, he wants mineo to be somewhere (or with someone) that he will be happy for the longterm.
but... it kind of feels like, now more than ever, he just made their attachment even more firm. and that might not be a good thing. ]
If it's what you want. [ ... ] And not because you feel obligated to babysit me now.
No one could pay me enough money to go through the fucking hassle of babysitting you, asshole.
[wow that was so fast but the sheer idea of having to look after takeru is literally the worst thing. he gets into so much trouble. he's possibly officially the most infuriating person that mineo knows.]
so extreme, but takeru resists only because a few hours ago he attempted to bad end so he figures he probably should not. but the urge is there. ]
I just don't want you to give up your other options for me if it's only because of the partnership. Once we're out of here, and once X-Day is over, you know that technically that'll be over, right?
in truth, he thought that the partnership would actually expire as soon as they walked out of this place, so knowing that takeru was actually going to give them until X-Day is pretty nice too? reassuring, in a way. he thinks he can get away with a few more things if he's still takeru's partner.
but that does mean a deadline still exists.]
... does it have to be? And I really don't know what other options you think I have.
Satoru's got freaky sorcerer stuff and likes Omi-san the most anyway - I'm pretty sure he was just messing with me. Lenore-san doesn't actually know much about me, pretty as she is. I'm hoping Endorsi gets with Queen Medb, and White has something he has to dedicate himself to, too.
[ . . . . ]
Even if I like people, I don't think there's anyone I want more than you.
[but he just pulls takeru a little closer to him at that - ]
Can't we just be together? Even if you won't stay at the office - I don't know what I'll do yet. Hang out with Yanagi-senpai if he wants to go legit detective agency, or go back to Field Ops... Well, I do know I'll probably move out. Or... pick up English and go to America, I guess.
Oh, yeah. We both have so much shit to work through.
[MINEO'S BEEN SAYING THAT FOR WEEKS AND THEN TAKERU SAID YES TO EXACTLY THE WRONG QUESTION.]
... but do you remember what I told you last time we were at the beach?
[until we can promise that nothing will ever matter as much as each other, because that's the type of love I believe in, and I don't want to give or receive anything less.]
I think we're getting closer, even if we did take some steps back.
... tomorrow, if everything works out, then you'll get your wish, and I'll get mine - so you won't be rid of me. We'll get to work and figure out X-Day, and then... even if we're not technically partners anymore, we'll still have each other.
We can figure out what that means from there, can't we? Wherever that leads.
[dating? marriage? america?
even mineo's not sure at this point but - the most important thing is that they'll finally have time to figure it all out.]
[ he can point out that there is still a high chance that he will choose to run away in the end, if he decides that he doesn't want to deal with it all.
his downfall here is still just that there are only so many places you can hide on this base, and he knows that mineo would literally search every inch of it until he found takeru and. well, at least earth has a lot more hiding spots than here, right?
but it feels a little cruel to think about running away while he's with mineo like this. and especially since he's not entirely sure what the status of their actual relationship is at the moment. ]
Right.
... you're free to do whatever you want tonight though, so.
[and there are people that he wants to say something to, before they all go separate ways because they don't know about cross-world travel yet. he knows that he'll have to leave takeru eventually - even if he'll probably ultimately come back to this room to sleep.
and he knows there are probably other people who will want to see takeru too, but.]
.... do you want me to leave? [if he wants time by himself] Still no lies, if you can.
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[ it's the only reason he actually announced his plan of maybe going to america instead of leaving quietly. because, even when he wants to be left alone, there's still that part that doesn't want mineo to let him go.
sometimes, you are very selfish even when you don't have the right to be. ]
This might hurt less.
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[and mineo does let go of takeru's hands - but just for a moment. just so that he can loop his arm around takeru's waist instead, pulling him closer to remove some of the distance between them. some part of it is wanting to make up for all the ways that takeru seems to be pulling away - another part of it really is mineo acting selfishly.
he's gotten far too used to takeru being close enough to touch.]
But I do think you need to feel it for a little while - to face what you've done. Not forever, but you can't keep running, Takeru. [ . . . ] Isn't that what you used to get mad at me for?
[isn't it a little too familiar to watch someone get stuck in a cycle of not facing their problems?
even still - mineo just sighs and speaks softly]
.... but if you still want me, then you still have me, so you don't have to face it all alone.
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because takeru has been very adamant that he didn't want mineo following him because of an obligation through partnership. takeru may be jealous and possessive, but at the end of the day, he wants mineo to be somewhere (or with someone) that he will be happy for the longterm.
but... it kind of feels like, now more than ever, he just made their attachment even more firm. and that might not be a good thing. ]
If it's what you want. [ ... ] And not because you feel obligated to babysit me now.
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[wow that was so fast but the sheer idea of having to look after takeru is literally the worst thing. he gets into so much trouble. he's possibly officially the most infuriating person that mineo knows.]
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But if you haven't figured out how much I care about you, how much I depend on you, by now....
Then that's my mistake. I really haven't done enough.
Which is frustrating but - that's okay... because I think we finally have time, and I don't plan on giving up.
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so extreme, but takeru resists only because a few hours ago he attempted to bad end so he figures he probably should not. but the urge is there. ]
I just don't want you to give up your other options for me if it's only because of the partnership. Once we're out of here, and once X-Day is over, you know that technically that'll be over, right?
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in truth, he thought that the partnership would actually expire as soon as they walked out of this place, so knowing that takeru was actually going to give them until X-Day is pretty nice too? reassuring, in a way. he thinks he can get away with a few more things if he's still takeru's partner.
but that does mean a deadline still exists.]
... does it have to be? And I really don't know what other options you think I have.
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[ moron.
he doesn't exactly move so that he's closer to mineo, but he does shift so that he can give his arm a light squeeze. ]
... there's nothing else for us to be partners for after that. No matter what, I'm not going to be sticking with the office after.
[ even if he doesn't run away, he'd probably go back to cyber crimes. ]
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[ . . . . ]
Even if I like people, I don't think there's anyone I want more than you.
[but he just pulls takeru a little closer to him at that - ]
Can't we just be together? Even if you won't stay at the office - I don't know what I'll do yet. Hang out with Yanagi-senpai if he wants to go legit detective agency, or go back to Field Ops... Well, I do know I'll probably move out. Or... pick up English and go to America, I guess.
[he won't take it off the table if takeru won't]
Can't we just be partners in life or something?
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he just listens to all of this and... ]
Mineo. That's called marriage.
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[ . . . . . ]
I mean yeah, if we get together for real after all this, isn't that what'll happen? Wait, you said you're not the marriage type...
Well we don't have to if you don't want to....
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[ it seems a little laughable to date someone right after he almost fucked over all of his current dating options.
... ]
But, I wouldn't say I'm not the marriage type.
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[MINEO'S BEEN SAYING THAT FOR WEEKS AND THEN TAKERU SAID YES TO EXACTLY THE WRONG QUESTION.]
... but do you remember what I told you last time we were at the beach?
[until we can promise that nothing will ever matter as much as each other, because that's the type of love I believe in, and I don't want to give or receive anything less.]
I think we're getting closer, even if we did take some steps back.
... tomorrow, if everything works out, then you'll get your wish, and I'll get mine - so you won't be rid of me. We'll get to work and figure out X-Day, and then... even if we're not technically partners anymore, we'll still have each other.
We can figure out what that means from there, can't we? Wherever that leads.
[dating? marriage? america?
even mineo's not sure at this point but - the most important thing is that they'll finally have time to figure it all out.]
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his downfall here is still just that there are only so many places you can hide on this base, and he knows that mineo would literally search every inch of it until he found takeru and. well, at least earth has a lot more hiding spots than here, right?
but it feels a little cruel to think about running away while he's with mineo like this. and especially since he's not entirely sure what the status of their actual relationship is at the moment. ]
Right.
... you're free to do whatever you want tonight though, so.
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[and there are people that he wants to say something to, before they all go separate ways because they don't know about cross-world travel yet. he knows that he'll have to leave takeru eventually - even if he'll probably ultimately come back to this room to sleep.
and he knows there are probably other people who will want to see takeru too, but.]
.... do you want me to leave? [if he wants time by himself] Still no lies, if you can.
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[ he said no lies.
but he'll actually press himself more against mineo, closing his eyes. ]
You should take care of what you need to, with everyone else.
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he's just going to sigh then, wrapping both of his arms around takeru and keeping him close as he buries his face in his hair.]
.... in a bit.
I'm a little busy right now. I feel like I'm this close to catching someone I've been chasing after for a while now.
[or losing him entirely the second that mineo looks away.
he's learned exactly what he's willing to risk, and what he isn't.]
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[ his tone is casual, but also tired. ]
I hope you manage to get what you want.
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[he won't deny that takeru is annoying but he'll just shift then so he can rest their foreheads together, so takeru has to look him in the eyes]
... but I'm just waiting on some outside answers. [which are currently being held at gunpoint by a harajuku girl in a bunny hoodie] And you.
I'm optimistic, though. And stubborn.