[ . . . . he feels a little ashamed. like he wants to know - but he can't help but feel as though takeru might be right. but that's no one's fault but mineo's. a twist in his chest, like him not being ready to talk about it yet is his own failing. his heart isn't in the right place, his head's not prepared for truly making a decision. it's his fault.
but takeru is so - painfully thoughtful, in ways that mineo hadn't quite realized. that in and of itself manages to make his heart leap a little painfully, even as he pulls back from the kiss and lets his face bury in takeru's neck as if to hide.
it doesn't do much to hide his own overwhelming affection, even if it's tinted with some shades of confusion and uncertainty, like he's still processing it. and the guilt for not being sure.]
[ he really wonders how this would have gone, if mineo wasn't here with him. all takeru knows it that it was have been a completely different experience, even if he isn't sure if it's a good thing or not.
takeru goes quiet, listening to mineo's breath, as he wonders what to do from here. after a moment, ]
[ - the comment manages to pull a huff of a laugh from him, even from his position resting against takeru. he presses a kiss to takeru's neck, brief but sweet.]
What do you mean by that? I should've been working all along, right?
[isn't this just making up for all the bad karma he racked up before they got here?]
[ he's trying to steer the conversation away from what they were talking about. it's both to save mineo from having to linger too longer on feelings that he isn't ready yet to analyze, but also to distance themselves from the topic of adonis that's never lingering too far away from them.
but, also, they do need to solve this other problem. ]
[ . . . . when takeru's grip on him tightens - he can't help that feeling of reassurance. of knowing that takeru wants to hold onto him to, even if he can't promise how.
he hears the question, and he knows that they're meant to stop arguing about the same thing - for now. they'll revisit it, because of course they will. they've been arguing in circles for weeks, and they might be arguing forever... if takeru doesn't figure out his wish here.
there really is just one solution right? make sure that he gets his wish.
he pauses for a second, before he presses their lips together again, as if the affection will reassure him too, and his nerves.]
.... there are some things left I haven't given you, right?
[he leans into the kiss and - there is just a little bit of amusement. takeru keeps jumping on him at literally any moment, and yet now there's this consideration? where was this in the common room or observation room.
but.]
.... it makes me a little mad. [if he's being totally honest. but he'll pull away then, removing his eyepatch and taking out his ponytail. though he pauses to also start removing the necklace he always wears] There's a lot about this place that pisses me off, but it did give me meeting you.
[this version of takeru, who is probably just as much of a pain in the ass as any other version of takeru, but regardless is the one that mineo has gotten so fond of.]
.... but if I think about it less like this place making me give up something, and more like.... I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I didn't give you everything I could.... it's way easier. [a beat] And - I've kind of wanted to.
[every time they hooked up, mineo has absolutely entertained anywhere from thirty seconds to a minute at a time if they might as well just go all the way. he really is hotblooded, at the end of the day.
even though it remains that he's also a romantic, and he is sincere. he can't casually date, and he can't casually hook up. he never really thought of it as waiting for the right person when, before this, no one even wanted him. but if takeru wants him, and if this is just one more way for mineo to show how serious he is about saving him....
he unfastens his necklace then, pushing it into takeru's palm even as he kisses him again. certain, determined, and so terribly and endlessly devoted.]
.... so if you wander off because you're doing something stupid, hold onto the parts of me that I'm giving, until we meet again. Because we will, no matter how this turns out. I'll never stop running after you.
[ it's funny, because takeru really does not have mineo's reservations about this. to put it bluntly, it's not like he's a slut? he really isn't the type to go out and have casual sex with others, and only finally accepted hooking up with others when he didn't receive the first item when the first batch of people did.
it was stubbornness and pride, more than anything, that urged him to indulge sexually.
but there's a certain level of care that he wants to give mineo. and admittedly, takeru really has no problems with getting what he wants. he will say what he wants to do, and see if he can get away with it and will pout a bit when he's denied (he will continue to try to get mineo to give him a bj in a public space). but, at least for this, he wanted to be considerate. ]
... then I'll make sure that you'll never even think this was a bad idea. [ he kisses mineo again. ] And make you wish you did this earlier with me.
[ it's mostly him just trying to kill any more nerves that mineo might still have. ]
[there is the slightest chill down his spine as he realizes suddenly this is simply giving takeru another weapon in his arsenal to absolutely fucking destroy him. will he sleep at all for the next few days. is anywhere safe.
but - there is the bundle of nerves. of course there is. takeru doesn't need emotionshare for that, to know that mineo's heart is hammering against his chest. he can probably feel it, close as they are. but there is also trust, adoration, and full faith that he can believe in what takeru's saying. he doubts that he'll regret this either. it's easy to lean into the kiss, to let his fingers tangle lightly in takeru's hair to keep him close, and then fall back onto the bed to bring both of them down]
You kept me waiting too, Takeru.
[even though he'll always, always want to catch him.
i can't believe it took 7 weeks for them to fuck anyway hanky panky, enomoto mineo is no longer a virgin. fuck.]
[ it was horrendously intimate because this is emotionshare week. literally what a time to choose to have sex for the first time. anyway. after.
after, takeru is curled around mineo, legs tangled with his, as he idly brushes a finger through mineo's hair. he's not really saying anything for a while, but after a moment, ]
[SO INTIMATE. JUST SO INCREDIBLY INTIMATE. the idea of even more vulnerability and intensity being passed than just horny feelings. oh my god.
mineo is perfectly content to be affectionate after, even if he's also - a little awed? it's fine. sometimes you realize that you had sex for the first time with your partner who you were barely even coworkers with 8 weeks ago. though at the teasing he's automatically flustered, because some stupid habits just won't die. he buries his face into takeru's hair]
Stop.
[that's it, that's all he can say. but he also automatically presses a kiss to his temple too. horrible. he's still so fond, it's the worst.]
[ yeah it really is just. adoration? very gross feelings, but also great amusement... mineo can feel the s in takeru in this moment when he flusters at the comment. ]
For someone who gets so shy when the topic comes up, you really get into it.
[oh it's just so soft. even with the amusement and the S tendencies, it's so soft and mineo's heart is melting because he's a dumb loser who's easily made so happy with attention - up until he gets teased again and then there's another surge of embarrassment and indignation.]
I - that's not...! My fault...!
[it is. and he presses his mouth against takeru's as if it'd be enough to get him to shut up. though there is also a bundle of nerves again as he seems to worry - ]
... it was - okay? For you?
[did mineo probably go full head empty at some point and get really aggressive again? yes. but he really does have to check after, because even with emotionshare, he worries about being able to please takeru.]
[takeru really absolutely does not need emotionshare to feel the way that mineo's heart nearly stops at that, as he also nearly stops breathing, from some combination of surprise and embarrassment and, unfortunately, horny.]
he. will. also go to sit up? but he's clearly having a flustered crisis because he's doing that thing where he talks without realizing he's saying it out loud again]
.... is this.... Is this even an item on the 100 Things list? Did I ever let my imagination go this far? Does Takeru have an X-rated 100 Things list. He seems like he would.
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but takeru is so - painfully thoughtful, in ways that mineo hadn't quite realized. that in and of itself manages to make his heart leap a little painfully, even as he pulls back from the kiss and lets his face bury in takeru's neck as if to hide.
it doesn't do much to hide his own overwhelming affection, even if it's tinted with some shades of confusion and uncertainty, like he's still processing it. and the guilt for not being sure.]
.... sorry.
I wish I could be better for you.
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[ he really wonders how this would have gone, if mineo wasn't here with him. all takeru knows it that it was have been a completely different experience, even if he isn't sure if it's a good thing or not.
takeru goes quiet, listening to mineo's breath, as he wonders what to do from here. after a moment, ]
Even if I'm making you work.
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What do you mean by that? I should've been working all along, right?
[isn't this just making up for all the bad karma he racked up before they got here?]
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[ his grip on mineo tightens for a moment. ]
Are you going to help me indulge?
[ he's trying to steer the conversation away from what they were talking about. it's both to save mineo from having to linger too longer on feelings that he isn't ready yet to analyze, but also to distance themselves from the topic of adonis that's never lingering too far away from them.
but, also, they do need to solve this other problem. ]
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he hears the question, and he knows that they're meant to stop arguing about the same thing - for now. they'll revisit it, because of course they will. they've been arguing in circles for weeks, and they might be arguing forever... if takeru doesn't figure out his wish here.
there really is just one solution right? make sure that he gets his wish.
he pauses for a second, before he presses their lips together again, as if the affection will reassure him too, and his nerves.]
.... there are some things left I haven't given you, right?
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so he just kisses him again before answering. ]
... you don't have to go that far.
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but.]
.... it makes me a little mad. [if he's being totally honest. but he'll pull away then, removing his eyepatch and taking out his ponytail. though he pauses to also start removing the necklace he always wears] There's a lot about this place that pisses me off, but it did give me meeting you.
[this version of takeru, who is probably just as much of a pain in the ass as any other version of takeru, but regardless is the one that mineo has gotten so fond of.]
.... but if I think about it less like this place making me give up something, and more like.... I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I didn't give you everything I could.... it's way easier. [a beat] And - I've kind of wanted to.
[every time they hooked up, mineo has absolutely entertained anywhere from thirty seconds to a minute at a time if they might as well just go all the way. he really is hotblooded, at the end of the day.
even though it remains that he's also a romantic, and he is sincere. he can't casually date, and he can't casually hook up. he never really thought of it as waiting for the right person when, before this, no one even wanted him. but if takeru wants him, and if this is just one more way for mineo to show how serious he is about saving him....
he unfastens his necklace then, pushing it into takeru's palm even as he kisses him again. certain, determined, and so terribly and endlessly devoted.]
.... so if you wander off because you're doing something stupid, hold onto the parts of me that I'm giving, until we meet again. Because we will, no matter how this turns out. I'll never stop running after you.
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it was stubbornness and pride, more than anything, that urged him to indulge sexually.
but there's a certain level of care that he wants to give mineo. and admittedly, takeru really has no problems with getting what he wants. he will say what he wants to do, and see if he can get away with it and will pout a bit when he's denied (he will continue to try to get mineo to give him a bj in a public space). but, at least for this, he wanted to be considerate. ]
... then I'll make sure that you'll never even think this was a bad idea. [ he kisses mineo again. ] And make you wish you did this earlier with me.
[ it's mostly him just trying to kill any more nerves that mineo might still have. ]
You can catch me now.
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but - there is the bundle of nerves. of course there is. takeru doesn't need emotionshare for that, to know that mineo's heart is hammering against his chest. he can probably feel it, close as they are. but there is also trust, adoration, and full faith that he can believe in what takeru's saying. he doubts that he'll regret this either. it's easy to lean into the kiss, to let his fingers tangle lightly in takeru's hair to keep him close, and then fall back onto the bed to bring both of them down]
You kept me waiting too, Takeru.
[even though he'll always, always want to catch him.
i can't believe it took 7 weeks for them to fuck anyway hanky panky, enomoto mineo is no longer a virgin. fuck.]
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after, takeru is curled around mineo, legs tangled with his, as he idly brushes a finger through mineo's hair. he's not really saying anything for a while, but after a moment, ]
We'll still do whipped cream next time.
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mineo is perfectly content to be affectionate after, even if he's also - a little awed? it's fine. sometimes you realize that you had sex for the first time with your partner who you were barely even coworkers with 8 weeks ago. though at the teasing he's automatically flustered, because some stupid habits just won't die. he buries his face into takeru's hair]
Stop.
[that's it, that's all he can say. but he also automatically presses a kiss to his temple too. horrible. he's still so fond, it's the worst.]
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For someone who gets so shy when the topic comes up, you really get into it.
[ this is why vira kinkshames the next day ]
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I - that's not...! My fault...!
[it is. and he presses his mouth against takeru's as if it'd be enough to get him to shut up. though there is also a bundle of nerves again as he seems to worry - ]
... it was - okay? For you?
[did mineo probably go full head empty at some point and get really aggressive again? yes. but he really does have to check after, because even with emotionshare, he worries about being able to please takeru.]
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I'd let you fuck me again.
[ that is praise, considering takeru is the type who. prefers to top. he is too controlling. but he'll allow it. ]
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A-Ah..... G-Got it!
[WHAT, EXACTLY, DOES HE GET]
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Let's go take a shower.
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pausing]
"Let's"?
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Yeah. Come on.
[ he's? just waiting?? ]
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he. will. also go to sit up? but he's clearly having a flustered crisis because he's doing that thing where he talks without realizing he's saying it out loud again]
.... is this.... Is this even an item on the 100 Things list? Did I ever let my imagination go this far? Does Takeru have an X-rated 100 Things list. He seems like he would.
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[ he reaches over to just
yank his ear ]
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Gah!! I was talking out loud....?!
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[ he will let go and then turn to walk away from the bed to go down the loft stairs. he is still naked but it's fine no one else is here. ]
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[well he will at least move to follow after a moment]
You’re so confident. You didn’t even ask me if I texted Endorsi for the room. I did, but I didn’t think we’d actually....
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[ he'll wait by the bathroom door for mineo to get there, and then he'll grab his hand to tug him inside. ]
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Fun? What’s your definition of fun in this case?
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