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Hey... You didn't need to add the 'very'.
[though he's just being petulant now and he's quiet, thoughtful about it even as his hand comes up to trace the curve of takeru's cheek in thought]
... I realized last week. [through emotionshare] When things felt heavier than I expected.
[ . . . ]
But I also thought that those feelings were with me for a while already, so I just didn't notice them. So... I think I liked you for even longer than that, probably.
[though he's just being petulant now and he's quiet, thoughtful about it even as his hand comes up to trace the curve of takeru's cheek in thought]
... I realized last week. [through emotionshare] When things felt heavier than I expected.
[ . . . ]
But I also thought that those feelings were with me for a while already, so I just didn't notice them. So... I think I liked you for even longer than that, probably.
[ . . . . he gets quiet for a second before giving takeru's hand a squeeze]
... the entire time.
When we first got here, I was scared you got judged too. It's why I panicked, seeing you.
But... it sounded like you didn't. So... right next to wanting to live, I wanted to make sure you went home safe, with or without me. It probably came off as overprotective...
I just knew I'd never put me, who doesn't have a future, over you, who actually has one.
[it was automatic.
I could never choose me over you.]
... the entire time.
When we first got here, I was scared you got judged too. It's why I panicked, seeing you.
But... it sounded like you didn't. So... right next to wanting to live, I wanted to make sure you went home safe, with or without me. It probably came off as overprotective...
I just knew I'd never put me, who doesn't have a future, over you, who actually has one.
[it was automatic.
I could never choose me over you.]
... I don't think you are.
[and his expression softens a little bit at that, even as he returns the kiss with another]
I think you're selfish in a way that helps more people than you think - because even while you're looking for answers, everyone else benefits too. Even if your motivation is different from mine, I don't think it's wrong... you can help a lot of people just by being you - if that's what you choose.
[he can hurt a lot of people trying to seek revenge, by letting adonis get someone as talented as him but... well. mineo will do his best to prevent that future.]
... but I think that I've always wanted to save or help people. Once we got here I thought it'd be fine, as long as I could be of use to you.
[and his expression softens a little bit at that, even as he returns the kiss with another]
I think you're selfish in a way that helps more people than you think - because even while you're looking for answers, everyone else benefits too. Even if your motivation is different from mine, I don't think it's wrong... you can help a lot of people just by being you - if that's what you choose.
[he can hurt a lot of people trying to seek revenge, by letting adonis get someone as talented as him but... well. mineo will do his best to prevent that future.]
... but I think that I've always wanted to save or help people. Once we got here I thought it'd be fine, as long as I could be of use to you.
I really didn't care that much about helping the other participants here.
[ he really doesn't need the curse to admit this. takeru doesn't think he ever acted like he cared about every person here. ]
There are still plenty of people here who I don't care if they get revived or not. Or even some of the living, who I can't say it would bother me if they didn't get their wish. I wouldn't want them dead, but I wouldn't go out of my way to help them if it didn't benefit me.
[ there's a pause. ]
Guess that's why you're so popular.
[ he really doesn't need the curse to admit this. takeru doesn't think he ever acted like he cared about every person here. ]
There are still plenty of people here who I don't care if they get revived or not. Or even some of the living, who I can't say it would bother me if they didn't get their wish. I wouldn't want them dead, but I wouldn't go out of my way to help them if it didn't benefit me.
[ there's a pause. ]
Guess that's why you're so popular.
[ . . . . he shrugs a little bit at that, a careless gesture even as he presses a kiss to takeru's forehead.]
It doesn't change the fact that with your efforts, along with Harrow and the others, are important for us getting... well, anywhere here. Even if it's not your intention... it still gets results. I think that's still pretty talented, to be able to help people without meaning to.
When sometimes even when I want to help people, I don't know how, or I take too long to do it because I get stuck. I think if you were any better at other things, it'd be really unfair for the rest of us?
[fondly, because mineo really does think takeru is an impressive person, even if he's not conventionally 'good' in a way that's easy to understand]
... I still don't know or care much about being popular. I just want to make use of the time I have - especially knowing I might not have much longer than this. [a beat, and then he winces] Sorry. I know that's not easy to talk about.
[even if it has been on his mind a little more lately]
It doesn't change the fact that with your efforts, along with Harrow and the others, are important for us getting... well, anywhere here. Even if it's not your intention... it still gets results. I think that's still pretty talented, to be able to help people without meaning to.
When sometimes even when I want to help people, I don't know how, or I take too long to do it because I get stuck. I think if you were any better at other things, it'd be really unfair for the rest of us?
[fondly, because mineo really does think takeru is an impressive person, even if he's not conventionally 'good' in a way that's easy to understand]
... I still don't know or care much about being popular. I just want to make use of the time I have - especially knowing I might not have much longer than this. [a beat, and then he winces] Sorry. I know that's not easy to talk about.
[even if it has been on his mind a little more lately]
[ ... ]
No, you're going to leave here with a new life, and I won't hear anything saying otherwise.
[ he actually just gets up, so that he's sitting on mineo and looking down at him. ]
I will burn this reality down until I get what I want. There is no universe where you don't get to live after this, Enomoto Mineo.
No, you're going to leave here with a new life, and I won't hear anything saying otherwise.
[ he actually just gets up, so that he's sitting on mineo and looking down at him. ]
I will burn this reality down until I get what I want. There is no universe where you don't get to live after this, Enomoto Mineo.
Edited 2021-03-31 18:51 (UTC)
[ah.
he tries to bite his tongue, like it'd be enough to stop the curse from speaking for him but - ]
I want to. Of course I want to, even if it feels selfish of me to say.
[he'll try to hold onto both of takeru's hands then, interlacing their fingers]
There's plenty that I want to do - that I think I need to do. Solve Fuji-senpai's case, prevent X-Day, going to Osaka with you, even just seeing my little sister again—
... I've just been thinking about it, since it's probably the last week. That's all.
he tries to bite his tongue, like it'd be enough to stop the curse from speaking for him but - ]
I want to. Of course I want to, even if it feels selfish of me to say.
[he'll try to hold onto both of takeru's hands then, interlacing their fingers]
There's plenty that I want to do - that I think I need to do. Solve Fuji-senpai's case, prevent X-Day, going to Osaka with you, even just seeing my little sister again—
... I've just been thinking about it, since it's probably the last week. That's all.
[ he pulls on mineo's hands, trying to make him sit up as well. ]
I understand why you're thinking about it. I do.
[ it's impossible not to. all takeru has been doing this whole time is plot out his terrible backup plans if things go wrong, so he can't blame mineo fully. but. ]
I just can't allow it.
I understand why you're thinking about it. I do.
[ it's impossible not to. all takeru has been doing this whole time is plot out his terrible backup plans if things go wrong, so he can't blame mineo fully. but. ]
I just can't allow it.
[oh
he's taking the kiss but he's totally blushing even though they've been in this position so many times by now? when he pulls back he's just burying his face in takeru's shoulder]
Why does that make me so happy....
[well he presses a kiss against his shoulder anyway]
he's taking the kiss but he's totally blushing even though they've been in this position so many times by now? when he pulls back he's just burying his face in takeru's shoulder]
Why does that make me so happy....
[well he presses a kiss against his shoulder anyway]
[it's so easy to go with the hold and mineo just cuddles in for a second before he goes to pick up takeru's phone just to check for the time - before putting it away again
and then pressing another kiss to takeru's neck]
... I think we have time, and I owe you one, don't I? [since takeru apparently went for a mid-conversation handjob. he'll lift his head just so he can give him another kiss, lingering longer] So if you want to feel good again...
[
them realizing they could fuck was genuinely one of the worst things to happen]
and then pressing another kiss to takeru's neck]
... I think we have time, and I owe you one, don't I? [since takeru apparently went for a mid-conversation handjob. he'll lift his head just so he can give him another kiss, lingering longer] So if you want to feel good again...
[
them realizing they could fuck was genuinely one of the worst things to happen]
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