... if the reprogramming worked, and we get the wishes, it should be fine.
[ there won't be a point in joining adonis if he gets what he wants from here. that said, there are some other complications to iron out, but he has decided to worry about that at another time. ]
[ admittedly he would choose something miserable in a heartbeat if the wishes happen to not work out but like, would the mods not give us golden end for lowe's birthday? time will tell. ]
It'd be nice for almost everyone to get what they want.
. . . We really haven't done anything to deal with the fact that if it gets its wish to be 'unburdened from its programming' it will immediately kill all of us.
Perhaps. Or perhaps the power nerfing will wear off first, in which case some of us can handle it. I wouldn't mind some people here realizing I'm not entirely useless in a fight.
[Whatever. It will be fine.]
. . . There are a few people here whose wishes I'm worried about having granted. That thing. Mahito. Honestly, Misa. But I think I've reached my capacity on caring about strangers.
[Hmm. She pauses, because she really doesn't want to harp on him when he knows, but. He didn't exactly only abandon a bunch of strangers?]
. . . I've only ever really had one friend before coming here, and she thought I hated her for years. [Which is maybe relevant to some of his relationships, too???] So I don't feel I have any particular insight into how not to fuck up with my relationships. But I do feel that certain people here have expended a lot of energy to force me to stop making choices that make me miserable, and I thought I would have hated that but I really don't.
So perhaps I should have asked you more about why you were here. I don't care that you agreed for my sake, but I care for yours. Don't be alone.
I think everyone was just being polite. I went out of my way so that people wouldn't ask me anything about myself. It's how I operated back home too, so it worked out here. I really wasn't lying when I kept telling everyone at the start that Mineo and I weren't close.
[ takeru didn't consider mineo a friend until like, w2? maybe w3?? funny. ]
So I can't really blame people for respecting my wishes.
That's how I've always tried to be, too. And I thought it was best that way. But plenty of others haven't allowed me to keep things to myself, so I ought to have realized.
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[ there won't be a point in joining adonis if he gets what he wants from here. that said, there are some other complications to iron out, but he has decided to worry about that at another time. ]
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[What she means is reevaluate your priorities, but he's already hurting a lot and admitted he wishes he'd chosen differently, so.]
We didn't go through all of this bullshit to return to something miserable.
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[ admittedly he would choose something miserable in a heartbeat if the wishes happen to not work out but like, would the mods not give us golden end for lowe's birthday? time will tell. ]
It'd be nice for almost everyone to get what they want.
[ not the robot. ]
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. . . We really haven't done anything to deal with the fact that if it gets its wish to be 'unburdened from its programming' it will immediately kill all of us.
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[ it's the only way he can see it ending not violently. ]
Although that doesn't help the people wherever he's going.
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[Whatever. It will be fine.]
. . . There are a few people here whose wishes I'm worried about having granted. That thing. Mahito. Honestly, Misa. But I think I've reached my capacity on caring about strangers.
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[ that
that was one of his problems, honestly, it's fine. ]
But there really isn't much we can do for them at this point. We're not responsible for their actions.
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[Hmm. She pauses, because she really doesn't want to harp on him when he knows, but. He didn't exactly only abandon a bunch of strangers?]
. . . I've only ever really had one friend before coming here, and she thought I hated her for years. [Which is maybe relevant to some of his relationships, too???] So I don't feel I have any particular insight into how not to fuck up with my relationships. But I do feel that certain people here have expended a lot of energy to force me to stop making choices that make me miserable, and I thought I would have hated that but I really don't.
So perhaps I should have asked you more about why you were here. I don't care that you agreed for my sake, but I care for yours. Don't be alone.
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I think everyone was just being polite. I went out of my way so that people wouldn't ask me anything about myself. It's how I operated back home too, so it worked out here. I really wasn't lying when I kept telling everyone at the start that Mineo and I weren't close.
[ takeru didn't consider mineo a friend until like, w2? maybe w3?? funny. ]
So I can't really blame people for respecting my wishes.
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It's fine. Mineo was annoying.
[ it just wasn't slightly enough but. it's something. ]