[to be told to indulge every single day, on the thing that caused him such harm, on something that caused him such aching pain because he couldn't move forward.

at the question, he pauses a little bit.]

.... less so here. I feel....

[ . . . . ]

Different.

I'm not the same as I was back in Field Ops, when I would charge into everything. I.... I mean, I had to be good at my job, so I was. But I didn't question anything back then.

[justice - what it meant to help people, what it meant to be good or righteous. he never spared a thought for it, because he thought that he was always doing good.]

.... but at least I feel like I'm moving again. And I don't feel as blind or naive as I was before.

[a beat]

I think they judged me for one other thing. I mean... based on what they said.