[ . . . . he shakes his head - sort of. he doesn't actually lift his head from takeru's shoulder.]
... no. I used to think... it was all absolutes. Black and white. Crimes are crimes, killing's bad, and to be good, you have to do well. [ . . . ] But that's not true. I still have to hold onto some stuff... You can't kill just because you want to test your own strength against people, or something like that. [a flare of anger. honestly mineo really still hates childe even after shooting him.]
But... now I've killed someone who couldn't even fight back against me. [which, for the record, does add another layer of anguish for mineo] That's still bad - but my reasons are different. And if I didn't... and he still somehow found a way to hurt someone - Vira-san. Harrow-san. You. How would I be able to live with that?
There's probably no version of events in which somebody wouldn't have gotten hurt. ... so I chose the version where I could protect the people I wanted to protect.
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... no. I used to think... it was all absolutes. Black and white. Crimes are crimes, killing's bad, and to be good, you have to do well. [ . . . ] But that's not true. I still have to hold onto some stuff... You can't kill just because you want to test your own strength against people, or something like that. [a flare of anger. honestly mineo really still hates childe even after shooting him.]
But... now I've killed someone who couldn't even fight back against me. [which, for the record, does add another layer of anguish for mineo] That's still bad - but my reasons are different. And if I didn't... and he still somehow found a way to hurt someone - Vira-san. Harrow-san. You. How would I be able to live with that?
There's probably no version of events in which somebody wouldn't have gotten hurt. ... so I chose the version where I could protect the people I wanted to protect.