[Hmm. She pauses, because she really doesn't want to harp on him when he knows, but. He didn't exactly only abandon a bunch of strangers?]
. . . I've only ever really had one friend before coming here, and she thought I hated her for years. [Which is maybe relevant to some of his relationships, too???] So I don't feel I have any particular insight into how not to fuck up with my relationships. But I do feel that certain people here have expended a lot of energy to force me to stop making choices that make me miserable, and I thought I would have hated that but I really don't.
So perhaps I should have asked you more about why you were here. I don't care that you agreed for my sake, but I care for yours. Don't be alone.
I think everyone was just being polite. I went out of my way so that people wouldn't ask me anything about myself. It's how I operated back home too, so it worked out here. I really wasn't lying when I kept telling everyone at the start that Mineo and I weren't close.
[ takeru didn't consider mineo a friend until like, w2? maybe w3?? funny. ]
So I can't really blame people for respecting my wishes.
That's how I've always tried to be, too. And I thought it was best that way. But plenty of others haven't allowed me to keep things to myself, so I ought to have realized.
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[Hmm. She pauses, because she really doesn't want to harp on him when he knows, but. He didn't exactly only abandon a bunch of strangers?]
. . . I've only ever really had one friend before coming here, and she thought I hated her for years. [Which is maybe relevant to some of his relationships, too???] So I don't feel I have any particular insight into how not to fuck up with my relationships. But I do feel that certain people here have expended a lot of energy to force me to stop making choices that make me miserable, and I thought I would have hated that but I really don't.
So perhaps I should have asked you more about why you were here. I don't care that you agreed for my sake, but I care for yours. Don't be alone.
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I think everyone was just being polite. I went out of my way so that people wouldn't ask me anything about myself. It's how I operated back home too, so it worked out here. I really wasn't lying when I kept telling everyone at the start that Mineo and I weren't close.
[ takeru didn't consider mineo a friend until like, w2? maybe w3?? funny. ]
So I can't really blame people for respecting my wishes.
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It's fine. Mineo was annoying.
[ it just wasn't slightly enough but. it's something. ]