[She understands, a little. It surprises her somewhat, but it's compelling; it makes sense of what he said to her once before, that killing people here would go against the point of his wish.]
. . . My cavalier died in order to save my life. An awful death, beyond what I could undo on my own. I've wanted to make it right, to save her.
Most of the time, we didn't get along, but we knew one another so well that I can just. . . easily imagine what she'd say or do in any situation. I don't really feel that I was able to say no so much as I was able to imagine what her answer would have been, and vocalize it.
I don't know what I would have done, if I hadn't had at least that. If I'd only had to decide on my own.
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[She understands, a little. It surprises her somewhat, but it's compelling; it makes sense of what he said to her once before, that killing people here would go against the point of his wish.]
. . . My cavalier died in order to save my life. An awful death, beyond what I could undo on my own. I've wanted to make it right, to save her.
Most of the time, we didn't get along, but we knew one another so well that I can just. . . easily imagine what she'd say or do in any situation. I don't really feel that I was able to say no so much as I was able to imagine what her answer would have been, and vocalize it.
I don't know what I would have done, if I hadn't had at least that. If I'd only had to decide on my own.